Berubah angin

Kesian blog... dah lama kena tinggal... bukan apa.... busy and malas tahap gaban... there were so many things to be done in last couple of months, and i've only got this pair of hand and a brain...

And it's difficult when you are trusted by your superior to handle several VERY IMPORTANT things like creating action plan and reporting for IMP*3, or to attend high profile meeting on her behalf.. or even to represent her during a conference... trust me it's not that easy... i couldn't simply sit there, looking pretty, and taking down notes.. (how i wish i could only do that..) i have to speak out on any matter related to my organization.. and it's very distressing, knowing the facts that almost all of the people who are looking at me hold very important position in their organization.

I attended a meeting in Putrajaya the other day.. again, representing my boss.. and when i got there, i realized that the meeting was chaired by a Deputy Minister.. my Gosh.. and I felt like hiding under the table, and i had this wild imagination that somehow the building would be on fire and everybody would have to escape. But there I was.. again sitting there like a helpless chicken.. And worse still, on my left, there was this Dato' from this Ministry.. and on my right, there was another Dato from a govt agency. Gosh!! And exhanging call card was another painful moments for me.... terasa kecik dan halus diri ini...

However, that was a good experience I guess... hehehe...

On another note, selepas berfikir.. dan fikir.. dan berfikir lagi.. i decided that i need a change... i've been in this division for 3 years... and i've done LOTS of report writing, analysis of trade.. and other things as well. Perhaps, i need to move on to other units and do something different. I guess it's the time now...